Share my life take me for what I am, cause I'll never change all my colors for you.

Well this is my first blog in almost two months so bear with me because a lot has changed. It also may have a lot of rambling in it but I am writing it with a particular thought in mind. When I first started blogging I was so...angry? at the world. Reading through my posts I go back to all those feelings and then look at myself now. I'm so much of a stronger person now than I was then. There's really only one person that knows how hard I've been working on being strong and they probably don't really understand it completely anyway. Reading through my posts also makes me angry at myself because I really made things out to be worse than they were. Everyone has problems and it's how you deal with them that make you the type of person you are so that makes me really dissatisfied with the way I dealt with things, but rest assured I'm nowhere near the person I was then.
Anyway, I've been thinking a lot lately about how much people change the way they act around certain people. I know we'd all love to think we're individuals that never conform, but I, for one, am very guilty of changing the way I act around certain people. There is a very small group of people that I feel completely comfortable around that I don't have to think about offending someone, or sounding dumb with what I say or do. This makes me think of one of my mom's friends who was diagnosed with cancer recently and given two months to live. He and my mom call each other almost every day now. Why does it take knowing someone is dying to change things? In my opinion we need to live our lives to the fullest. Life is too short, live every day like it's your last. Love as hard as you can without holding back. No one ever said life was easy, so enjoy the blessings you have. Not everyone in the world has them.
Sorry if all that is a little annoying, that's just how I've been trying to look at life. It works pretty well for me, so maybe it will work for you. :]
Anyway I'll try to be better about blogging. I just got the urge to do it tonight for some reason haha. And again, sorry if it was all over the place. :]
-Bridgett